So it happened.....
It finally happened....
Thru all the damn tears, the months of waiting, the hours wasted......it happened.....
I let go....
I know to my maybe one or two readers you're throwing the bullshit flag on this, but it truly happened.....
It's official.....
I stayed too long, I fought too hard, I cried too much, I ruined way too many friendships, I hurt a lot of people.....for what? For someone who threw me away like garbage and I had some mission that I would make him love me....make him think I was of value......
It wasn't him.....
I didn't need him.....
I needed me....
And it was hard to find me after a lot of years of emotional, verbal and some physical abuse....but I found me....
It didn't happen over night....or even in days....it took a long....lloooooooooonnnngggg time for me to get it...to realize that I needed no one but me....I have to love me, I have to think I'm of value....not him....me.....
I'm good....
I'm happy....
I smile now....quite a bit actually....
I laugh more....
I only cry at sappy movies....
I love my children more....
I'm good....
I'm happy....
It happened....
