Friday, January 22, 2010

Understanding

















un·der·stand·ing (ndr-stndng) n.

1. The quality or condition of one who understands; comprehension.
2. The faculty by which one understands; intelligence. See Synonyms at reason.
3. Individual or specified judgment or outlook; opinion.
4.
a. A compact implicit between two or more people or groups.
b. The matter implicit in such a compact.
5. A reconciliation of differences; a state of agreement: They finally reached an understanding.
6. A disposition to appreciate or share the feelings and thoughts of others; sympathy.
adj.
1. Characterized by or having comprehension, good sense, or discernment.
2. Compassionate; sympathetic


There comes a point in everyone's life when you ask yourself.....don't you understand me?!?

To say the word "frustration" is almost like an understatement, you think it's so easy, so simple....yet some people don't' get it, they just plain down right don't understand.

You want to start drawing pictures, or you start wishing for them to actually "know" your thoughts so you can rub it in to them "See how simple that was?!?" But no such luck....

So you're left with that feeling....the feeling of disappointment or anger, followed up by the last line of fine I don't give a shit...

I guess I just wish things were simple...people were simple, feelings were simple, relationships were simple.....not having to struggle with the thoughts and feelings of the daily conversation that doesn't have to be a battle, just has to be about the understanding that it is what it is....you get what you get, and the world will go on.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Thoughts and feelings....

I would love to think that everyone has one of those days....one of those off days that when you wake up you have that feeling....maybe it's not a big tug, but a tug non of the less .....you know the feeling that you need more, you want more....call me crazy, but this morning was one of those mornings....I woke up and I felt it. I needed more, I wanted more. I'm wondering if I should blame my mother for not hugging me enough...or if I'm just an over the top affection hog. This morning I needed more affection, I needed to have that "loved" feeling....I wanted to be overwhelmed with kisses and hugs...and have "i love you" post it notes hung in mysterious places, then to have my husband surprise me with flowers......

But nada....nothing....so I'm left having one of those days...when of those off moments where you question, am I the only one who becomes in that moment, one of those attention seeking whores you just wants that loved feeling...who wants that hopeless romantic....who believes in all of those lovey dovey romance movies, that yes it is possible to have that...to have it all

So I'll sit here....have my off day....go home tonight and snuggle, trying to regain my off feeling and hope for a better morning